[The second those barking cries begin Fenris darts up and crashes their mouths together, teeth knocking and lips throbbing from the force of that messy kiss. Shut up meeting oh Maker please please please, his tongue thrusting forward in subduing command even as he trembles to pieces beneath his boyfriend. More wait please more, for the swollen head of Astarion's cock is wedged by the barest inch within him, thick enough to make him feel like he's stretched to burst and yet paradoxically not enough, not yet. His hips thrust up in needy half-inches as he tries instinctively to fuck himself, but Astarion isn't hard enough, not yet— and so all he ends up doing is grinding himself against him, whining softly all the while. It's pathetic, or so he would have thought a few days ago. Worse than a bitch in heat, all instinct and mindless passion— but the Fenris of a few days ago didn't know how fucking good it felt to be spread open. He'd never felt those shockwaves of being stretched ripple through him, gagging him, electrifying him; he'd never thought about being bent over and spread apart until he could taste Astarion in his throat, but now—
Now it's all he wants.]
You're so loud.
[He wrenches his mouth back just long enough to growl that out, teeth nipping in sharp scolding as he grinds against him.]
S-so damned loud, you're gonna get us caught, and—
[Fuck. There's a long moment of silence as he teeters on the edge of balking humiliation and ravenous lust, and then Fenris swallows thickly.]
And I want you to fuck me before we stop. Really fuck me, not just put it in. And I want you to come in me.
[It isn't just the swell of his prick that's driving Fenris to distraction, no— not when he can feel searing heat dripping down his legs. Thick droplets of come (it must be, though he can't look down and spot it just yet) slide down the inside of his trembling thighs, leaving trailmark streaks of shining cream against swollen curves and flushed flesh, and thought of it— the thought of being covered in Astarion's claim, in being marked by him, tan skin painted over in vulgar shades of pearl— leaves Fenris breathless.
No, not just breathless— overwhelmed. Insatiable for this new aspect of attraction he'd never once thought about before, his mind fixated on the thought of Astarion coming on him, in him, come dripping down his thighs and fucked into him, lodged so deep that he can't get it out—
Instinctively some part of him recoils, for surely he shouldn't think such things. Surely that isn't how it works, that isn't how decent people think— and yet there's no uncorking a bottle. It's so easy right now to shove protests away in favor of pure, mouth-watering desire. I want more, he thinks greedily, and licks at the swell of Astarion's bottom lip.]
So stay quiet, brat. And wait til you get hard again.
[His finger, formerly stilled, pick up its rhythm again; in the next moment he adds a second one, thrilling in the slick way Astarion spreads for him. Tight, so tight, every cinching squeeze a paradox (get out meeting don't go, his body squeezing him in desperate, possessive hunger). Slickly he pumps them in and out with damning rhythm, working his way in deeper and deeper with every pass.]
Come's spilled out searing-hot between his fingertips, matched only by the little stretch they're still sunken into to the knuckle— his teeth ache slightly in periphery, too dizzy or too drunk on his own overdriven climax to comprehend why— all of it painted over by the ringing in his ears; it makes it hard to hear what Fenris tells him, though Andraste's naked tits, he feels a brutally saccading wave snap through him in an instant, rolling back his eyes.
Yes, that sounds so good, he thinks (as what lingers of awareness drips down over his fingertips onto the mattress).
Yes, he wants to— he wants to—
Oh, gods. The wince that has him by the throat once he hears it all finally echo in his skull, groaning over nothing but the plush measure of Leto's tongue. Yes, yes, yes he wants to fuck him, that's all he wants, and all he wants to spur himself towards as his hips lance forwards by degrees, fighting just to straighten against overstimulation's brutal grasp. If he pumps in deep enough, or spreads his fingers a little more, or—
The noise he makes when Fenris starts to work hard into him is meant to be coherent. Begging or wailing out his name, or pleading for a moment— a moment just to catch his breath— it's the first time in his life he can remember being called a brat and not snarling, not biting, not hitting back with the rawness of childish offense. Because this time, writhing over his companion's pistoning attention, he whines with his whole chest. So hard, so agonizingly hard, that what should've been an outcry of coherence spills out of his chest as mmrrhhghg.]
His eyes snap open as his tongue falters in its demanding exploration of Astarion's mouth, all of him suddenly and swiftly consumed by the sound of that whine. Vulgar and raw and needy— and to Fenris' adolescent ears, the most alluring sound of fornication known to man. Forget the fluttery moans or breathless whines the others will sometimes evoke just to tease, for those were nothing more than irritating noises. Something like this— Maker, how can anything compare? How can anything be better than such a needy, helpless little mewl, and all of it for him, because of him. Outright begging him wordlessly not to stop, not to falter, not to do anything except take him—
He'll take him—
To his distant shock, he growls as his fingers redouble their efforts: wrist snapping sharply as his fingers plunge in deep over and over, faster and faster, all of him intent on earning more of those filthy little noises. The slick sounds of oil splattering and flesh meeting flesh fill the air between them as Fenris pants against his lover's mouth, eyes fixated on his face. Every motion is an experiment: his fingers scissoring open wide or hooking down as he forces them deeper still, trying to see what makes Astarion wail in overheated response.]
That's it—
[He breathes it out against swollen lips, taunting and coaxing all at once. Any thought he'd for the others has swiftly dissipated; as far as Fenris is concerned, they're alone here. His hips jerk up just once, squeezing tight around the swell of Astarion's cock and caught fingers, eyes fluttering as he does— Maker, that's still something he wants desperately, but soon. After this, after this: this delicious show, this intoxicating new way of driving his boyfriend into wordless ecstasy.]
Are you gonna come a third time?
[He bites sharp at Astarion's bottom lip, punctuation to the mean way he breathes out that taunt. His wrist is aching for the angle and yet he doesn't slow his pace: just fucks into him the way he wants to be, now. Rhythmic and hard and unrelenting, living on every stuttering moan and desperate whine.
Unseen, his other hand creeps between them, flitting to wedge itself between his own thighs. Two fingers glide over the slick swell of Astarion's cock, rubbing faintly (and measuring, with distant awe, just how wide he feels, oh Maker how will I fit— it doesn't matter, he will).]
Do I have to help you, or can you do it all on your own again?
I can d— [There's no room for stubbornness. There's barely any room for his half-hard prick within the interlay of a stretched narrow and their aching fingers. When he swallows next, it's hard enough that the necklace he's been wearing shoves up tight against his adam's apple, adding a faint jingling percussion to the act of violently jolting—
Oh be careful what you wish for, Fenris.
It'll be easy to find what makes him wail with change to spare at this rate, but ease is what'll bring on the next outcry that risks their secrecy. The next collapse into world-shattering oblivion shaped like Fenris' shuttling fingers as they spur him deeper and deeper, until there's no measure of the sounds he's making or the things he's saying— no measure of what anything is except for pure, unbridled perfection. The table he's been sat beside since childhood, reserved for people older than him. Smarter than him. Richer or better or more elegant. Bright, blinding, gleaming courtesans and their famous counterparts uncorking bottle after bottle of something that he'd never even caught a real whiff of in the air—
And now it's him sitting at that table.
Now the bottle is uncapped within his pearl-glazed hands, and he starves to squeeze it up against his lips and drink down every last drop as quick as it all comes. Now that he knows how consuming that it is, the reason why it's coveted— hoarded— there's no such thing as patience or sharing or restraint. Restraint. Restraint.
He isn't hard enough—
—and then he is. Between one stroke and the next he makes himself a mirror to the pressure fucking hard and fast inside him, scissoring, stretching, taking— each pump needier and more demanding than the last. Teaching him how hard, how deep, to lay himself, biting or kissing at anything in reach. Not to seduce, but to anchor.
He wants to make this last.
He knows he won't.]
Nngh— do you.
[He swallows air. Spit. Bliss.]
Do you need help getting off....
[His words are a hoarse whisper split between them, gleaming wet.]
That's the only word he can think of in this blinding eclipse of blown-out synapses and blinding arousal— the only word that matters right now. Yes, yes, yes, yes, roaring approval and panting desperation all tangled up into one heady wave poised to crash over him. Yes please yes, and it barely matters what the question is or what he's spurring on. Yes to the way Astarion feels between his legs, his thighs burning from the strain and the slick slide of skin against skin as he wraps his legs around him; yes to the burning pressure that stretches him open in one short, sharp thrust, forcing him wider with every ravenous pass until he swears he can't take anymore (and then does). Yes to the way he fucks him, hard and fast and and mercilessly, wedging his thickened prick in deeper and deeper until he can all but feel him in his throat, stuffed full and drowning in lust. Yes to the bites that send sharp shocks ricocheting through him, a deliciously dizzying counterpart to every hammering thrust, yes, yes, yes, yes—]
Yeah . . .
[Wait, what? The word slips past his lips in a daze, his eyes blown out black and utterly unfocused. It takes him a long second to realize that Astarion was taunting him; the moment the words register it sends another pulsing wave of arousal crashing through him, overwhelming enough to make him whine. Or maybe he'd already been doing that, maybe he's been doing that this whole time: whining and moaning and whimpering with unheeded volume, every bit of him consumed utterly with how fucking good this all feels.
Focus. Focus . . . but the trouble with that is that all he can think of now is how this is the first time. He'd been so lost in the moment he'd almost forgotten, but oh, that's another virginity that belongs to Astarion. First kiss (first real kiss, anyway, for Elise doesn't count, not right now), first orgasm . . . and now, the first time fucked. And that's hot for reasons he can't say; it's a possessive thrill that he and Astarion have one another's firsts (and he curls his fingers again, just to remind himself of it, this, this right here, this is mine).
He swallows thickly, scrambling to try and think of anything that isn't please please please keep fucking me please.]
Tell me when you get tired.
[Not a taunt, not this time. His retort comes in the way he squeezes tight around Astarion's cock, watching with satisfaction as his boyfriend's eyes roll back.]
[He won't last long in the grasp of overstimulation. Too much too fast will have him jolting where he's hunched on hand-and-knees like Fenris was when he'd first been rubbing at him: absent in his body, whimpering out plea after plea for him to wait— to stop long enough for him to catch his breath as the world ebbs slowly back into focus, carried on waves of acclimating stillness that remind him of what normalcy once felt like (no more after this). No going back. No corking the bottle again.
The thought comes secondhand. Puppeteering him on strings when he's sumberged fully in constricted heat— hips rocking, teeth searching— he's not present as he reaches back to grab hold of strong wrists, pulling them up until Fenris' hands (and the slightly sticking tack of slickened fingers) brace on either hip. Stay here. Be here. Work him with nothing but those muscles and the bruising need to see this through again. Again. As many times as it takes for them to fall apart completely, useless and unrecognizable come morning light. Zevlor and Kanan might mourn them but gods above he won't— not if this is how he goes, buried within the only boy he's ever loved, cock first, tongues winding over one another. His first. His last. His everything.]
I'm tired.
[He says as if he wasn't just fighting yet another out-of-body shudder with his eyes rolled back under their lids, now instead unblinking. His hands still a vice around those wrists, his hips still working at a shiftless pace.
Not careful (dark lashes flicking up in shadow, gazing at the lover underneath him like a moth fixed on bright flame), indulgent.]
[Fenris shudders beneath the indulgent rock of pale hips, his back arching as his fingers go tight around the span of a narrow waist. He hadn't realized that the shiftless, languid way Astarion shuttles his cock in and out could feel just as good as going hard and fast and desperate. It's the complete antithesis of before, a building pressure that leaves him melting in panting desire, and Fenris sinks into it: his eyes fluttering as he squirms against the sheets, hips rocking up again and again with needy little whines.]
Okay . . . okay—
[Up. Up— with an effort he forces his eyes open. There's a part of him that could lie here for hours in lazy contentment, but he wants the opposite, too. He wants to see Astarion between his thighs, squirming needily against the the sheets as he moans out petitions for more.
Still: that doesn't mean he has to disrupt everything. Fenris rises, but languidly so, using the momentum to catch Astarion in a kiss that's every bit as sweet and lazy as the slow pulse of his cock. Come here, sweet, the words whispered between them before he tangles their tongues together and pries his wrists free of that tight grip. Slowly his palms drift up the planes of Astarion's body, tracing out the sweat-slick span of his waist, feeling up the swell of his arms, until at last they brace on his shoulders. Let me try this, let me show you what I can do, let me ride you, as he pushes him down against the sheets and draws back to seat himself fully on his boyfriend's cock.
And nearly comes then and there from how fucking good it feels.
Not better. Not better, for that would mean anything before this was lesser, and that Fenris isn't willing to concede— but Maker, it feels good. It feels divine, Astarion's cock obscenely thick and heavy and so deep in him that Fenris swears somehow he's managed to gain another inch somehow. For a moment he teeters there, swallowing thickly as he sways, but oh— this is about showing off.
For perched like this, he's so aware of how— well, how defined he is. All those hours of training, all those endless sit-ups and push-ups and laps around the block, gods, they're paying off now, for there's such effortlessness to the way he can rise up and drop down over and over without losing his breath. His thighs flex, the muscles in his belly rippling as he finds his rhythm (is he watching, does he like this, does he like seeing me like this, does he notice, and he's so preoccupied with how Astarion sees him that he forgets to try and be graceful— but then again, inexperience lends its own confidence, and he's no idea of how much better he'll learn how to be). Up and down, back and forth, the pace (nearly) effortlessly steady. He plants one palm against Astarion's chest, panting down at him as he bounces and ruts.]
Feel— feel good?
[It's not a taunt, not right now, for they aren't competing in this moment. This is them, just them, adoring and hungry and blissfully in love. He leans forward, nudging their noses together just once before catching him in a slick kiss, hungry to taste every moan and whine that vibrates on his boyfriend's tongue.]
[He wasn't really tired. He just wanted to see what it was like. Had to know if it'd feel different with their bodies angled in a different way, or if the view might suffocate him in a way he can't come back from (and it does)— its tideline rising in his lungs to push out all the air he rasps for, filling him with hadal spans of lightless pressure— let him drown here, let it have him. Possibility already calcified as truth the moment that his shoulders hit the mattress across a swath of tangled sheets that smell like home and heaven all at once; he isn't breathing as strong legs slip tight around him, he's lost the compass of his thoughts just to look up and find a body that— gods, it seems like overnight— stands already fit for fighting, wearing sculpted ridgelines under smooth, dark skin. He salivates around his molars for it like an animal waiting to be fed, clenches an aching jaw as sweat forms soft around his collarbone and paints him with that unchecked proof of wanting, for with gravity on their side this time it—
Fuck, it does feel different.
Tighter.
Hotter.
Sharper.
A piercing sense of ricocheting pressure bouncing up and down across the stiff span of his cock, painting the walls in a percussive slap-slap-slap that echoes back each time it's mete out, leaving him all but seizing in its' wake. His mouth is open. His tongue is lolled and wet. His eyes are glassy as they stare at Fenris without blinking and— like the fever-kindled plunge of his own overswollen prick— through him, kept spellbound by the creature that sits perched atop him in a haze of backcast lantern light, long fingers fanned out in an arc across Astarion's caught heart, milking him to the edge of his succumbing limit: a Diamond in everything but name.]
Nh— mm-hm....yes.
[It doesn't matter that they're young. It doesn't matter that his only metric for this came out of picture books and pantomime and stolen words from eavesdropped conversations: he's convinced Fenris belongs here, not just in the Moulin Rouge, but here— right here— teaching him how to better fit into the whole of their perpetually shared shadows as a single mergered measure. Letting him taste the back of his tongue and piston his wild cock into places he'd never let anyone else see, let alone touch. Possessive and needy and greedy in a paradoxic twist that runs both servile and mean before—
Before—
His back arches. His hips can't— tanned thighs and a canting, pretty swell have pinioned them down— twisting up his fingertips in cotton as he whines the start of a sharp, suffocating cry that only hitches. Rises. Drops into a whisper whilst the rest of him stays high and stiff and locked.]
There's no world in which he doesn't give Astarion what he wants.
Because of how pretty he looks in orgasmic desperation (disheveled hair and sweat-touched skin glimmering in the warm lantern glow, his mouth red and slick and bitten as he gasps up at his beloved). Because of how he sounds as he begs (raw and throaty and starkly desperate, with none of that coy charm or arrogant grace to be found). Because of how fucking good he feels as he trembles taut between Fenris' thighs, his cock wedged in thick and deep and throbbing in need. Yes, Fenris thinks without thinking, his hips picking up their rhythm, for you, anything, always, yes, yes, yes, the word echoing in time with the slick sound of skin on skin. It's the only possible answer, generosity colored a vulgar shade but all the more earnest for it.
Yes, yes, yes, and he fights to squeeze over and over around the swell of Astarion's cock while still bouncing atop him, clumsy in lust and earnest in love. He can't keep rhythm, can't milk him the way he instinctively longs to, and for a moment he hesitates— only to realize a split second later that it barely matters just so long as he keeps moving, rocking, letting Astarion fuck into somewhere hot and tight and slick, yes yes yes—]
Come for me, sweet . . .
[He breathes it out coaxingly— and then watches in awe as Astarion unravels. His eyes dart around as he soaks up every detail, greedily hoarding each and every one (no one else will see him like this, no one else will know what it looks like when he truly falls apart). Astarion's expression contorts sweetly, and Fenris groans in sympathetic echo each time he whines or whimpers or wails his pleasure. His tips his head back, exposing the long, lean line of his throat, and Fenris darts down, biting a mark into unmarred skin, savoring the way Astarion jolts in avid response. Again and again he rocks with him, slamming his hips down for every frantic buck up, until at last—
Fenris shudders as Astarion's climax finally subsides, and it's only a little to do with how he's still achingly hard. But there's something about knowing that he's come in him— that he's claimed him . . .
And it doesn't mean anything, of course— but then again, it does. There's something deliciously possessive about it, primal and instinctive and right. Not definitive and cruel like a collar had once been, but rather something intimate: above anyone else, I chose you, I want you, you're mine and I'm yours.
And it's hot. Maybe it doesn't need more analysis than that.]
I liked you coming in me.
[There's questions he wants to ask. Vulgar ones, ones that he can't possibly think of articulating right now, even when he's speared atop his boyfriend's cock. Questions like can you see it on your cock if I lift up or do you think you've filled me up; things that burn at his brain but that his tongue outright refuses to curl around.
Next time. He'll ask next time, maybe, but right now . . . he nuzzles at Astarion's cheek, pressing a few aimless kisses to damp skin. Right now, he wants nothing more than to shower his boyfriend in doting affection. One hand cards through his hair as he noses against him, listening to the way he pants.
[Everything trickles at a distance after that, soft and hazy-muted. His mouth is cotton with a wet smack of tacky dryness, and every sound is like the sharp buzz of copper wiring rife with electricity, exposed to open air. Like that, all he knows is this: His ears are burning. His cheeks are burning (a bright, rashy red, a whimper in his throat he barely swallows in response to the kiss of a whisper at his earlobe).
Every part of him is burning.
Gunpowder made up of tight-clenched inner thighs pulled close against his hips; kindling is the catch— the squeeze— wrung around the pith of his worn cock, hitching and shifting and settling around the way they're merged together, wrenching a scalding noise out of still-parted lips that he (oh, at this rate) might never close again. Gulping. Gagging, even. Whining like the spoiled thing he is and always has been. A mess of contradictions with a name he can't remember, swallowing air that feels like burning coal.
Air that feels like burning from the inside out.]
....I did too.
[That's what Fenris said, right? That he liked this— the come, or coming— something about that. Something beautiful. Something vulgar that leaves him shuddering hard enough for his teeth to chatter like he's cold— but he's not. Not Astarion. Astarion is still embers, after all. Belongs to heat and not the absence of it, still burning holes in messy sheets with lanky limbs and dumbstruck love and eyes that can't stay open, unlike the rest of him. He reaches out as if he were on a thread within the apex of it all, fingers trembling to the sound of ringing in his ears (and the dull pop of the flat top of his sandpaper tongue each time he moves to swallow), one hand falling around the junction of Fenris' leg and hip, and the other....
Oh it's where it belongs before he knows it. Bedded in the shadows under a strong stomach and narrowed ribs. Stroking at the stiff, heavy breadth of what's increasingly familiar to him now. What it is to hold his boyfriend's prick with hungry familiarity, greeting the little differences touch-first. A little leaner here; a little more flared there; straining heavy at the tip as it drools needily over his fingertips (those movements dangerously close to mirroring the sweatsoaked carding through his hair— high to low— high to low—) instead of starting at a laden hilt. He doesn't know how he knows the way it's meant to be, only that a shiver rouses in him, thinking right here. Right there. Like this.
Face canting to one side, searching with the outline of his teeth for baser contact.
(Or the memory of how to speak instead of thinking what it'd be like to bury his own tongue between tanned thighs.)
It's not fair they're out of sync.
It's not fair he's the only one who's spent.]
I wonder....[Astarion exhales into negative space and clips the edge of his newly claimed boyfriend's ear] ....if my bodyguard would look more handsome painted slick across my belly— or his own.
[I wonder if I could make you beg, too, underscores the rasping of each word. Too hard-ridden to sound like himself, not without a drink of water or wine. Not without giving up on the only thing he wants.]
That's the only answer that counts, and it barely matters what the question is. Yes to the unspoken question of if he could get him to beg (easily, eagerly, whining and whimpering as if he's never known an ounce of shame). Yes to the way Astarion's fingers stroke his come-slick prick, high to low, high to low, and it's stunning how something so simple as a change in direction makes his thighs tremble and something searing hook deep in the pit of his belly. Yes to the suggestion of teeth against his ear and a slick palm roaming against his hip; yes to the sound of Astarion's voice low and throaty in his ear, murmuring such filth that sets off fireworks in his mind and dazes him to his core, yes, yes, yes—]
Ngh—
[A low moan slips past his lips instead of Astarion's name, and can anyone blame him? When his boyfriend whispers things that make him wring around the swell of his prick, face burning with desire and embarrassment both— when the thought of swaying on his heels, dripping with his own come and staring up at an enraptured, lustful Astarion captures his mind— when Astarion says such deliciously possessive things like my bodyguard— oh, Maker, he's only mortal.
He swallows thickly, squeezing his eyes shut as he tries to focus— to remember how to think, or speak, or do anything beyond rut his hips forward and whimper in blatant approval. Jerking his head back, he stares down at his boyfriend.]
Across your belly.
[There, now. Fenris tips his head, dark hair hanging like a curtain around his face as he peers down at him.]
So that I can have a claim, too.
[He brushes his knuckles against the edge of one sweat-damp cheek.]
You came in me— claimed me— made me yours— and now I want the same. I want you to be mine, even if the two of us are the only ones who ever know it.
So . . . make me come on you, Astarion.
[Experimentally he moves his hips just once, rocking them back to see if he can wring out one last noise from his boyfriend.]
He wrings out more than that. The noises Astarion makes (the noises that he's been making) are ones he's never heard before in all his life— not even here behind closed doors or when they (once, and only once) crawled through the vents between walls on hands and knees, places where stoked cries of whores and clients both were amplified like echoes— and he has to shut his mouth rather than his ears this time to silence them. He's not the catalyst (oh that is spread out over him, tight and fluttering around him and drenched with enough sweat and slick and heat and come that it threatens to smother him with its beauty— he's obssessed, memories fly off the shelves to make room for the buzzing trapped beneath his tongue— and he reels, and— ) he's just the source. Just the reactive set of muscle and teeth that snaps shut around his own sleeve whilst he stares up at heaven through a haze of scalding tears. Just the part of him that exhales noisily through it, whimpering at the aftershocks lithe hips strive to massage loose without letting his soft cock slip free.
He hears the silk of his sleeve tear. Feels the stitches popping loose between his teeth as his vision blurs beneath another squinting whine, each breath bellowed back into his own nose by soft silk. By the weight and shape of his forearm, his other fingers groping deep into tanned thighs with deeper, more demanding strokes than before— catching on occasion with a ring finger or a pinky the soft, supple hang of swollen curves behind it; hot and velvet-soft in a way that's tempting him to stop and wrap around them— but he can't right now. Not yet. Not when he feels the jolt of tensed-up muscles. Hears the telling strain in Fenris' roughened voice. He's starting to know the warning signs, what to chase and when to make things come apart. Or maybe that's just hubris— but he thinks he does. He thinks he does.
So this time he runs high.
This time he doesn't care how much silk he ruins when he pulls his jaw back from his arm, spit trailing sticky in slight strands from the wet-cold spot of where his mouth had been and where his tongue pants pink between childishly delicate canines— only long enough to speak.]
I'm already yours.
[It burns his lungs, the strain that holds his breath inside them at the height of their expansion. The effort that it takes to speak instead of keening like he wants to, feeling his own ribs grip back against soft flesh, trying to squeeze another outcry from him. The sort of mutiny that makes the world spin and his senses smear like paint on canvas, turning Fenris' handsomeness into a wetter haze— but he holds on.]
Make it undeniable.
[Another stroke. Another catch of fingers. Another glazing streak of movement wrapped around a still-glossed crown that shivers in his grasp.]
Like throwing gasoline onto a blazing inferno: Fenris moans without shame as he throws his weight forward, bracing himself against Astarion so that he can rut. Fucking himself with a fervor that grows more frantic with every passing second, his hips snapping forward to grind needily against Astarion's palm, shuddering with every wringing twist of pale fingers. More oh Maker please Astarion please I need it I need you please, his words slurred and broken up by the growing cacophony of moans and whimpers and mewls, until at last it simply becomes an endless echo of please. His thighs tremble as he gasps down at his boyfriend, eyes rolling back for every squeezing tug (please please please), electricity jolting up his spine whenever knuckles tap against soft curves (please more please don't stop). And when he manages to force open his eyes—
Fenris doesn't have words for what it is to see Astarion looking like that as he lies between tanned thighs. Glimmering eyes filled with tears that spill down flushed cheeks, the imprint of bitemarks vivid against sweat-soaked skin, the rise and fall of a narrow chest as he exhales hotly with every panting breath, and that's to say nothing of the saliva glittering against his chin, nor the way he's so overwhelmed he has to bite and tear his precious silks just to stay silent— Maker. He's damningly seductive in his messiness, all his pretty veneers stripped away into this raw, panting, perfect Diamond.
Come, his incubus whispers, and Fenris can do nothing but obey.
He's deaf to the hoarse scream that rips its way out of his throat and echoes around the room; he's blind to the way it looks as the first pulsing splatter of pearl lands atop Astarion's belly. Head thrown back and throat bared, he's too busy rocking into that coaxing grip, fucking himself blind— no instincts, no rhythm, no thought, nothing but longing and lust thundering through his veins. Again and again and again, until with one final, shuddering thrust of his hips . . .
. . . he's spent. His softening prick drools out one or two more droplets that form a viscous connection between stomach and cock; sweat drips along his temples and trickles down his spine as Fenris shivers atop his mate.
And then—
But there's nothing. No thoughts. No desperation. That last orgasm wiped him clean, and for a long moment Fenris simply sways there, a loud ringing in his ears and all of him so spent. Sooner or later he'll remember how to talk, perhaps, but for now there's only the increasingly adoring way he's looking down at Astarion. Oh, it's you, something in him murmurs. I love you, simple and yet so powerful he doesn't dare say it. Not now. Maybe not ever, or maybe tomorrow.
They're teenagers, after all. Fickle things in love and lust (and maybe there's a part of Fenris that will take a long time to accept that Astarion means to be his).
No, wait. There's one thought that permeates all that fog. Fenris blinks slowly, and then, with great force of effort, mumbles:]
[Happily is the key word. The underscoring. The pith, messy and pretty and still tight in all the places that it counts, beating with the slippery staccato rhythm of their pulses. He's slack around his elbows and tensed up round his cheeks and lower belly, so dizzy that the room around them is still spinning. That his thoughts themselves are going utterly lopsided, bullied by inertia and the way it pushes them in close.
He thinks with the same amount of grace he swallows by, scratchy and bobbing and as ungainly as a child—
—something he isn't now, though, is what comes rising to the surface. Through the high-pitched ringing in his ears that still sounds like Fenris' screaming and the shrill numbness of his fingertips now slid up around the nape of that lithe neck, left to shiver weakly in wet white hair. Through all the sticky, sweltering— and around their silhouettes, cold— sensations crawling in around them, he knows he's not a child anymore.
Children don't fall in love like this.
Children don't want to burn out from the inside and lap up come like cream, oh, no. That level of debauchery prints money here, and there's a reason why the sign on the front door makes damned well certain the only patrons passing through are those with age behind them. His heart is beating slower. Stronger. The jewelry he'd borrowed fits better where it's rucked up, gemstones glittering like welling droplets in the divots of his countours.
He feels taller, meeting Leto eye-to-eye at last now that they've grown. Face to face in ways they haven't been in years.
And then Leto arches forwards just enough to shift the pressure where they're bottled, and he lets out a heady groan as the entirety of his vision blurs (the slightest trickle slithering down between two sets of tangled thighs, coiled like a snake).]
And you....said I'm loud....
[He's smiling at a distance, ten thousand meters away from the place where an upwards angled cheek pushes hot against another. He wants to keep him here forever. Forever and a day, or as long as it takes to find the strength to wrap devotion round strong fingers like a band.]
[It isn't a very good retort, but on the other hand, it's a miracle he string words together at all. Eyes fluttering closed and every muscle aching, it's all Fenris can do to return those soft nudges. Damp skin meets damp skin as he pushes fitfully against Astarion's cheek, butting up against him like a needy packmate, his fingers aimless as they roam across whatever bits of Astarion he can find. Stay, stay, stay, the thought not fretful but languid. Stay with me, beloved, never leave me, for what could be better than this?
Nothing, that's what. Nothing at all. And it doesn't matter what debauchery goes on downstairs (though now Fenris has a renewed interest in understanding just what, exactly, he and Astarion might add to their next attempt), for none of the works those clients hold in their arms comes close to the blinding, blazing wonder that's Astarion.
Their loss, Fenris thinks smugly, and buries his face against the crook of his boyfriend's throat.
Eventually, his breath returns to him. He's still such a languid thing happily collapsed atop his mate, but his thoughts begin to take a sort of coherency. And the first thing he thinks, his thoughts trailing Astarion's own, is: we aren't children anymore. What surer marker of adulthood could there be? Virginites lost (and it's so deeply satisfying that it was to one another), that last bastion of unknown territory finally breached and given shape . . . what will it be like, Fenris wonders, to live in the cabaret now? The brothel was always kept separate from them both— not hidden, for Zevlor and Kanan are no fools, but at least ostensibly kept from the prying eyes of two impressionable teenagers. But now… what possible secrets could they hold now that Astarion and Fenris rank among their number?
Mm. Things to discover later, for all his musing on the future can’t compare to the present. Leto presses one tired kiss against Astarion’s cheek, then buries his face against the crook of the other boy’s neck.]
My Diamond . . . was it what you thought sex would be?
[That excursion into the vents had been educational, oh yes, and he’d been just as fascinated as Astarion (mouth dry and eyes wide, hardly daring to breathe for how fixated he was on the rutting, rhythmic show beneath them)— but it was nothing compared to this.]
Or should we try again soon?
[They’re still connected, he realized, and arches his back with a pleased little exhale.]
His groan is sharp, and only by the grace of the Maker or Sharess herself is he so lucky as not to really manage any sheer amount of volume in it; the enthusiasm is the fiercest part, not the air within his lungs— or out of his lungs, now, panting and clinging to Leto with a grip that no doubt burns.
Don't move like that, he thinks. And then, scolding his own synaptic instincts, spurns that same line of thought, do move like that. For where else do they have to be? What else do they have to do? What could be more important than this, other than love itself all sweaty and confined within their bodies, trapped around the places where they touch.
He kisses Leto back, and then squeezes the measure of their tangled legs together.]
Soon.
[(Flushing at the words 'his Diamond,' gods above that's all he wants to be. His Diamond. His.
Let fame and fortune keep itself company.)]
I didn't— I didn't know it could be this good. [Isn't flattery; he really hadn't thought sex was anything different than the usual thrills. Why people paid so much for it was like why some people preferred gold jewelry to silver— some mix of status and sheer expectation.
[Oh, how his ego swells for that compliment. Insecure anxiety hasn't yet gotten a chance to flare, and now perhaps it won't at all, for Astarion wouldn't say such things if he didn't mean them. Puffed up and proud, Fenris can't bite back his pleased smirk as he draws back to regard his boyfriend.]
I— didn't.
[Is that right? The past . . . however long it's been (minutes? hours? days? nothing really exists outside of this room, least of all the passage of time) are a happy blur, and only now does Fenris try to go back and pick apart each specific action.]
I . . . it just felt good, [he says a little helplessly. With a small wince he inches forward, drawing his legs up so he can ease them out of a kneeling position and stretch them back, and then lie down properly atop Astarion.]
I suppose some of it I must have seen in the past, but . . . I just did what felt good.
[Is that what sex is? It's such a scripted affair in the Moulin Rouge, or at least it's always seemed that way. Every dance is a titillating thing, meant to allure as it alludes to what might be sold later; every bounce and jiggle is planned in meticulous detail. Only now does Fenris think that maybe sex isn't quite the same way . . . or is it? Mm, it seems a little ridiculous to think that every person in the world plans out their rutting, so . . . maybe it's only good sex that's planned? But that can't be right, for look at what they've done . . .
Maybe they're just really, really good at it, Fenris thinks, and brushes a sweat-damp curl away from Astarion's face. His expression is more than a little besotted, he knows, but for the life of him he can't help it. His heart is just so full of adoration right now, doting and sweet; it's all he can do not to fiercely nuzzle against his boyfriend every second he gets.]
How did you learn? The dirty talk alone was . . . [Maker. He swallows thickly.] It was really good, Astarion. And when you said—
[I wonder if my bodyguard would look more handsome painted slick across my belly— or his own . . . match the way you look inside. Even now, the mere memory of them is enough to stir something in the pit of his belly— and yet he can't quite say it. What was easy in the heat of the moment is a little harder in the aftermath, and he glances away for a few seconds, pleasantly embarrassed.]
[Is that the first time in his life he's ever paid a compliment that devalues his own contributions?
(Yes, and it trickles effortlessly from his chest. Uncorked at last and beautifully aged— for the vintage might be far from ancient, but the potency is steep.)]
I think my lessons might've been paying off. [He's not yet learned how to even properly kiss; Satine has only covered etiquette, posture, and enunciation, common grooming tips and fashion. Astarion would've learned the exact same thing from any children's finishing school in the city, not that he knows it.
Not that either of them know it, and it's going to be such a menacing source of irritation for every single person around them from now until they (eventually) learn better.
He forces his fingers to unlatch— a dull ache flooding in alongside feeling and the rush of blood, so he's clunky in the act of stroking hair: not fully trembling in those first few passes, just close enough that he's aware each time they skirt too light or much too heavy in their path across his lover's sweatlaced scalp.
Hello, he thinks, words coming from a lifetime away.]
Don't....[it isn't tense; he's only interrupted by the fact that he forgot to breathe first, and finds he has to take in more to finish off his sentence] don't move yet.
I want to sleep like this if—
[This time the pause is real, he doesn't know the answer to this.]
[Oh, and he breathes out the word, his green eyes widening as he considers the idea. It would be satisfying, wouldn't it? To perch atop his cock for hours on end, their bodies intertwined in the most intimate way . . . oh, he thinks again, a flush dusting high along the tips of his ears.]
No-oo . . . not hurt.
[The words are spoken slowly as Fenris tries to make sure that's an honest reply. But no, there's no pain there, not even when he wiggles a little and arches his back just to be sure. Though that has the unintentional side-effect of teasing Astarion, and he makes a little face in an apology that's mostly genuine. Sorry-not-sorry, a little spark of satisfied sadism flaring momentarily in the pit of his stomach.]
It feels . . .
[How to describe it? Not something as simplistic as good, for that doesn't begin to cover it. Satisfying, maybe, is the best word for it: there's something so innately pleasing about the feeling of being caught and kept like this, speared open and spread wide around the not-inconsiderable width of his boyfriend's prick. I'm yours, that's what this feels like. I'm yours, only yours, slick droplets of pearl glossing his rim as Astarion claims him inch by inexorable, inevitable inch . . .
It's perverse, no doubt. Filthy in a way that he would have found repulsive in anyone else. But when it's them— well. That's different, isn't it? In the same way mulsum and agreggio pavali are both technically wines, but only one of them is innately desirable within these halls.
Oh, but he owes Astarion an answer . . . he'd nearly forgotten, lulled into dozing complacency by those fingers and his prick both.]
I want to sleep like this too. And stay atop you as long as I can. And next time, you can try it— it feels really good, Astarion. Better than you'd think. I like being with you like this . . . and—
[He draws back (one hand flying up to pin Astarion's in place— don't stop petting me).]
What if I move in my sleep?
[He used to cling when he was very young, his arms wrapping so tight around Astarion that the other boy couldn't get away if he tried. Now, older and more secure, he has a tendency to twist around until he's burrowed deep within the nest of blankets and sheets that make up his bed. It's not the worst behavior a bedmate could have, but there's been complaints of sharp heels and carelessly tossed limbs before.]
I don't want to break your cock.
[It's a good cock, and they've already had one scare tonight.]
[Maybe it'd be easier if he just wiggled off Astarion? He inches forward, trying to do just that, but oh, he's so loathe to lose that claim . . . mmph. A compromise: he nips at his boyfriend's jawline.]
Don't sleep just yet, for I don't want to get off you. Tell me instead what you want to try next time we do this.
[Next time, and despite himself, a little thrill runs through him for the thought. There will be a next time, won't there? And another, and another . . .]
Oh, the shiver that rockets through him at that (unintended) teasing. Oh gods the stars that burst across his eyes, shattering the slate of his awareness and leaving him clinging tight to Fenris— his stare unfixed and glassy, his fingernails dug in, shuddering like a wet cat.
It's only when he recovers that he knocks his cheek against his boyfriend's, letting one chastising scrape of skin-against-warm-skin serve as both scolding and acceptance all at once. How dare you mixed into I forgive you, menace.
He isn't really angry, after all.]
You won't break my cock. [Confident enough at first blush, his fingertips (the ones attached to his caught hand, anyway) resuming their slow petting. And then, amending:] ....at least I don't think you will.
You seem to like the way it feels, so I bet your subconscious would too.
[That sounds logical, right?]
Mmmm....but what I want to see next time.... [He's thinking. He's really thinking.] I hear blowjobs are amazing. That'd be nice. Maybe even....
Tying you up? —or blindfolds? The old silk ones are getting worn out, I heard Kanan say. It wouldn't be hard to borrow one without anyone noticing.
[Look how learned he is, Fenris. Look how much he knows about sex.]
[There's a small part of Fenris that still has some healthy doubts about Astarion's cock, but, well, so be it. They aren't sleeping just yet, and he does like the way this feels, thank you very much. It's all he can do not to squirm around experimentally; he has to settle for kneading gently against Astarion's chest, every touch a new wonder to be explored.
But oh, a blowjob— oh, those suggestions, and with each one Fenris' eyes grow wider and his cheeks warmer. He barely knows what a blowjob is, but it doesn't matter; anything that Astarion says he wants to try Fenris is more than game for.]
You—
[Tying you up or blindfolds . . . he'd known, vaguely, that those were things that people did during sex (for there was only so much Kanan and Zevlor could keep from them). But knowing it happened to others and considering it for himself are two very different things, and Fenris spends a precious few seconds trying to imagine what exactly that would look like. Though . . .]
Pick one to try.
[He tips his head, eyes narrowing in familiar competitiveness.]
Tie me up or blindfold me . . . but whatever you don't pick, I get to try on you.
[So flustered that it threads into his voice for half a second, breathy and completely uncomposed. His long ears sunken shyly underneath his curls until they twitch— and then jolt upright, all bashfulness wiped away by a short series of counterbalancing blinks.
(There's also the matter of the tension trapped low along his belly that still lingers, but he keeps his hands braced somewhere around either side of Fenris' shoulders now, and at least he can anchor himself through the way his fingertips curl just slightly over skin. Clinging and functioning like foundation all at once.)]
I mean— [Competitiveness. Competitiveness he can do, even distracted. An increasingly steady slant forming at the corner of his fresher grin insists on it, in fact.] of course. That's exactly what I had in mind, too.
That way we both can enjoy ourselves.
[Erh. No. Wait. Doesn't that imply that it wouldn't be pleasurable if they weren't taking turns?]
Try new things.
[ —Yes, there we go.]
Start making lists of all our favorites....just like the ones I've seen downstairs.
[Oh, Fenris' eyes gleam as Astarion flusters. He looks so sweet in those precious seconds, glimmering eyes wide and a pretty blush lighting up his cheeks . . . cute, Fenris thinks, and grins as his boyfriend regains his composure. Adorable how he flusters the moment the tables are turned on him, even if Fenris himself fares little better.]
I want to blindfold you first.
[The thought of Astarion with his hands drawn up over his head, lithe body drawn taut as he squirms in overstimulated impatience is, mm, a fantastic one, but Fenris likes the thought of him blind better. Going from arrogantly demanding things to gasping from the least little touch . . . oh, he likes the thought of that a lot, Fenris decides. And given they'll inevitably try everything from either end of the equation, he might as well demand what's on his mind first.]
That way we can start there . . . and go down any list we please.
[His eyes scan up and down Astarion's face, and then, in a burst of impulsive courage, he adds:]
I want to see you in lingerie. So. Add that to your list too. And I want to see you give me a blowjob too— maybe both of them at once.
[And maybe first, so that way Fenris can understand what exactly blowing someone entails.]
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Now it's all he wants.]
You're so loud.
[He wrenches his mouth back just long enough to growl that out, teeth nipping in sharp scolding as he grinds against him.]
S-so damned loud, you're gonna get us caught, and—
[Fuck. There's a long moment of silence as he teeters on the edge of balking humiliation and ravenous lust, and then Fenris swallows thickly.]
And I want you to fuck me before we stop. Really fuck me, not just put it in. And I want you to come in me.
[It isn't just the swell of his prick that's driving Fenris to distraction, no— not when he can feel searing heat dripping down his legs. Thick droplets of come (it must be, though he can't look down and spot it just yet) slide down the inside of his trembling thighs, leaving trailmark streaks of shining cream against swollen curves and flushed flesh, and thought of it— the thought of being covered in Astarion's claim, in being marked by him, tan skin painted over in vulgar shades of pearl— leaves Fenris breathless.
No, not just breathless— overwhelmed. Insatiable for this new aspect of attraction he'd never once thought about before, his mind fixated on the thought of Astarion coming on him, in him, come dripping down his thighs and fucked into him, lodged so deep that he can't get it out—
Instinctively some part of him recoils, for surely he shouldn't think such things. Surely that isn't how it works, that isn't how decent people think— and yet there's no uncorking a bottle. It's so easy right now to shove protests away in favor of pure, mouth-watering desire. I want more, he thinks greedily, and licks at the swell of Astarion's bottom lip.]
So stay quiet, brat. And wait til you get hard again.
[His finger, formerly stilled, pick up its rhythm again; in the next moment he adds a second one, thrilling in the slick way Astarion spreads for him. Tight, so tight, every cinching squeeze a paradox (get out meeting don't go, his body squeezing him in desperate, possessive hunger). Slickly he pumps them in and out with damning rhythm, working his way in deeper and deeper with every pass.]
Just wait . . .
[Wait until I get you ready to take me.]
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Oh. Oh, neither of them can—
Come's spilled out searing-hot between his fingertips, matched only by the little stretch they're still sunken into to the knuckle— his teeth ache slightly in periphery, too dizzy or too drunk on his own overdriven climax to comprehend why— all of it painted over by the ringing in his ears; it makes it hard to hear what Fenris tells him, though Andraste's naked tits, he feels a brutally saccading wave snap through him in an instant, rolling back his eyes.
Yes, that sounds so good, he thinks (as what lingers of awareness drips down over his fingertips onto the mattress).
Yes, he wants to— he wants to—
Oh, gods. The wince that has him by the throat once he hears it all finally echo in his skull, groaning over nothing but the plush measure of Leto's tongue. Yes, yes, yes he wants to fuck him, that's all he wants, and all he wants to spur himself towards as his hips lance forwards by degrees, fighting just to straighten against overstimulation's brutal grasp. If he pumps in deep enough, or spreads his fingers a little more, or—
The noise he makes when Fenris starts to work hard into him is meant to be coherent. Begging or wailing out his name, or pleading for a moment— a moment just to catch his breath— it's the first time in his life he can remember being called a brat and not snarling, not biting, not hitting back with the rawness of childish offense. Because this time, writhing over his companion's pistoning attention, he whines with his whole chest. So hard, so agonizingly hard, that what should've been an outcry of coherence spills out of his chest as mmrrhhghg.]
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His eyes snap open as his tongue falters in its demanding exploration of Astarion's mouth, all of him suddenly and swiftly consumed by the sound of that whine. Vulgar and raw and needy— and to Fenris' adolescent ears, the most alluring sound of fornication known to man. Forget the fluttery moans or breathless whines the others will sometimes evoke just to tease, for those were nothing more than irritating noises. Something like this— Maker, how can anything compare? How can anything be better than such a needy, helpless little mewl, and all of it for him, because of him. Outright begging him wordlessly not to stop, not to falter, not to do anything except take him—
He'll take him—
To his distant shock, he growls as his fingers redouble their efforts: wrist snapping sharply as his fingers plunge in deep over and over, faster and faster, all of him intent on earning more of those filthy little noises. The slick sounds of oil splattering and flesh meeting flesh fill the air between them as Fenris pants against his lover's mouth, eyes fixated on his face. Every motion is an experiment: his fingers scissoring open wide or hooking down as he forces them deeper still, trying to see what makes Astarion wail in overheated response.]
That's it—
[He breathes it out against swollen lips, taunting and coaxing all at once. Any thought he'd for the others has swiftly dissipated; as far as Fenris is concerned, they're alone here. His hips jerk up just once, squeezing tight around the swell of Astarion's cock and caught fingers, eyes fluttering as he does— Maker, that's still something he wants desperately, but soon. After this, after this: this delicious show, this intoxicating new way of driving his boyfriend into wordless ecstasy.]
Are you gonna come a third time?
[He bites sharp at Astarion's bottom lip, punctuation to the mean way he breathes out that taunt. His wrist is aching for the angle and yet he doesn't slow his pace: just fucks into him the way he wants to be, now. Rhythmic and hard and unrelenting, living on every stuttering moan and desperate whine.
Unseen, his other hand creeps between them, flitting to wedge itself between his own thighs. Two fingers glide over the slick swell of Astarion's cock, rubbing faintly (and measuring, with distant awe, just how wide he feels, oh Maker how will I fit— it doesn't matter, he will).]
Do I have to help you, or can you do it all on your own again?
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Oh be careful what you wish for, Fenris.
It'll be easy to find what makes him wail with change to spare at this rate, but ease is what'll bring on the next outcry that risks their secrecy. The next collapse into world-shattering oblivion shaped like Fenris' shuttling fingers as they spur him deeper and deeper, until there's no measure of the sounds he's making or the things he's saying— no measure of what anything is except for pure, unbridled perfection. The table he's been sat beside since childhood, reserved for people older than him. Smarter than him. Richer or better or more elegant. Bright, blinding, gleaming courtesans and their famous counterparts uncorking bottle after bottle of something that he'd never even caught a real whiff of in the air—
And now it's him sitting at that table.
Now the bottle is uncapped within his pearl-glazed hands, and he starves to squeeze it up against his lips and drink down every last drop as quick as it all comes. Now that he knows how consuming that it is, the reason why it's coveted— hoarded— there's no such thing as patience or sharing or restraint. Restraint. Restraint.
He isn't hard enough—
—and then he is. Between one stroke and the next he makes himself a mirror to the pressure fucking hard and fast inside him, scissoring, stretching, taking— each pump needier and more demanding than the last. Teaching him how hard, how deep, to lay himself, biting or kissing at anything in reach. Not to seduce, but to anchor.
He wants to make this last.
He knows he won't.]
Nngh— do you.
[He swallows air. Spit. Bliss.]
Do you need help getting off....
[His words are a hoarse whisper split between them, gleaming wet.]
....now that I'm inside you.
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That's the only word he can think of in this blinding eclipse of blown-out synapses and blinding arousal— the only word that matters right now. Yes, yes, yes, yes, roaring approval and panting desperation all tangled up into one heady wave poised to crash over him. Yes please yes, and it barely matters what the question is or what he's spurring on. Yes to the way Astarion feels between his legs, his thighs burning from the strain and the slick slide of skin against skin as he wraps his legs around him; yes to the burning pressure that stretches him open in one short, sharp thrust, forcing him wider with every ravenous pass until he swears he can't take anymore (and then does). Yes to the way he fucks him, hard and fast and and mercilessly, wedging his thickened prick in deeper and deeper until he can all but feel him in his throat, stuffed full and drowning in lust. Yes to the bites that send sharp shocks ricocheting through him, a deliciously dizzying counterpart to every hammering thrust, yes, yes, yes, yes—]
Yeah . . .
[Wait, what? The word slips past his lips in a daze, his eyes blown out black and utterly unfocused. It takes him a long second to realize that Astarion was taunting him; the moment the words register it sends another pulsing wave of arousal crashing through him, overwhelming enough to make him whine. Or maybe he'd already been doing that, maybe he's been doing that this whole time: whining and moaning and whimpering with unheeded volume, every bit of him consumed utterly with how fucking good this all feels.
Focus. Focus . . . but the trouble with that is that all he can think of now is how this is the first time. He'd been so lost in the moment he'd almost forgotten, but oh, that's another virginity that belongs to Astarion. First kiss (first real kiss, anyway, for Elise doesn't count, not right now), first orgasm . . . and now, the first time fucked. And that's hot for reasons he can't say; it's a possessive thrill that he and Astarion have one another's firsts (and he curls his fingers again, just to remind himself of it, this, this right here, this is mine).
He swallows thickly, scrambling to try and think of anything that isn't please please please keep fucking me please.]
Tell me when you get tired.
[Not a taunt, not this time. His retort comes in the way he squeezes tight around Astarion's cock, watching with satisfaction as his boyfriend's eyes roll back.]
And I'll ride you instead.
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The thought comes secondhand. Puppeteering him on strings when he's sumberged fully in constricted heat— hips rocking, teeth searching— he's not present as he reaches back to grab hold of strong wrists, pulling them up until Fenris' hands (and the slightly sticking tack of slickened fingers) brace on either hip. Stay here. Be here. Work him with nothing but those muscles and the bruising need to see this through again. Again. As many times as it takes for them to fall apart completely, useless and unrecognizable come morning light. Zevlor and Kanan might mourn them but gods above he won't— not if this is how he goes, buried within the only boy he's ever loved, cock first, tongues winding over one another. His first. His last. His everything.]
I'm tired.
[He says as if he wasn't just fighting yet another out-of-body shudder with his eyes rolled back under their lids, now instead unblinking. His hands still a vice around those wrists, his hips still working at a shiftless pace.
Not careful (dark lashes flicking up in shadow, gazing at the lover underneath him like a moth fixed on bright flame), indulgent.]
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Okay . . . okay—
[Up. Up— with an effort he forces his eyes open. There's a part of him that could lie here for hours in lazy contentment, but he wants the opposite, too. He wants to see Astarion between his thighs, squirming needily against the the sheets as he moans out petitions for more.
Still: that doesn't mean he has to disrupt everything. Fenris rises, but languidly so, using the momentum to catch Astarion in a kiss that's every bit as sweet and lazy as the slow pulse of his cock. Come here, sweet, the words whispered between them before he tangles their tongues together and pries his wrists free of that tight grip. Slowly his palms drift up the planes of Astarion's body, tracing out the sweat-slick span of his waist, feeling up the swell of his arms, until at last they brace on his shoulders. Let me try this, let me show you what I can do, let me ride you, as he pushes him down against the sheets and draws back to seat himself fully on his boyfriend's cock.
And nearly comes then and there from how fucking good it feels.
Not better. Not better, for that would mean anything before this was lesser, and that Fenris isn't willing to concede— but Maker, it feels good. It feels divine, Astarion's cock obscenely thick and heavy and so deep in him that Fenris swears somehow he's managed to gain another inch somehow. For a moment he teeters there, swallowing thickly as he sways, but oh— this is about showing off.
For perched like this, he's so aware of how— well, how defined he is. All those hours of training, all those endless sit-ups and push-ups and laps around the block, gods, they're paying off now, for there's such effortlessness to the way he can rise up and drop down over and over without losing his breath. His thighs flex, the muscles in his belly rippling as he finds his rhythm (is he watching, does he like this, does he like seeing me like this, does he notice, and he's so preoccupied with how Astarion sees him that he forgets to try and be graceful— but then again, inexperience lends its own confidence, and he's no idea of how much better he'll learn how to be). Up and down, back and forth, the pace (nearly) effortlessly steady. He plants one palm against Astarion's chest, panting down at him as he bounces and ruts.]
Feel— feel good?
[It's not a taunt, not right now, for they aren't competing in this moment. This is them, just them, adoring and hungry and blissfully in love. He leans forward, nudging their noses together just once before catching him in a slick kiss, hungry to taste every moan and whine that vibrates on his boyfriend's tongue.]
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Fuck, it does feel different.
Tighter.
Hotter.
Sharper.
A piercing sense of ricocheting pressure bouncing up and down across the stiff span of his cock, painting the walls in a percussive slap-slap-slap that echoes back each time it's mete out, leaving him all but seizing in its' wake. His mouth is open. His tongue is lolled and wet. His eyes are glassy as they stare at Fenris without blinking and— like the fever-kindled plunge of his own overswollen prick— through him, kept spellbound by the creature that sits perched atop him in a haze of backcast lantern light, long fingers fanned out in an arc across Astarion's caught heart, milking him to the edge of his succumbing limit: a Diamond in everything but name.]
Nh— mm-hm....yes.
[It doesn't matter that they're young. It doesn't matter that his only metric for this came out of picture books and pantomime and stolen words from eavesdropped conversations: he's convinced Fenris belongs here, not just in the Moulin Rouge, but here— right here— teaching him how to better fit into the whole of their perpetually shared shadows as a single mergered measure. Letting him taste the back of his tongue and piston his wild cock into places he'd never let anyone else see, let alone touch. Possessive and needy and greedy in a paradoxic twist that runs both servile and mean before—
Before—
His back arches. His hips can't— tanned thighs and a canting, pretty swell have pinioned them down— twisting up his fingertips in cotton as he whines the start of a sharp, suffocating cry that only hitches. Rises. Drops into a whisper whilst the rest of him stays high and stiff and locked.]
Please— Fenris, please please please—
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There's no world in which he doesn't give Astarion what he wants.
Because of how pretty he looks in orgasmic desperation (disheveled hair and sweat-touched skin glimmering in the warm lantern glow, his mouth red and slick and bitten as he gasps up at his beloved). Because of how he sounds as he begs (raw and throaty and starkly desperate, with none of that coy charm or arrogant grace to be found). Because of how fucking good he feels as he trembles taut between Fenris' thighs, his cock wedged in thick and deep and throbbing in need. Yes, Fenris thinks without thinking, his hips picking up their rhythm, for you, anything, always, yes, yes, yes, the word echoing in time with the slick sound of skin on skin. It's the only possible answer, generosity colored a vulgar shade but all the more earnest for it.
Yes, yes, yes, and he fights to squeeze over and over around the swell of Astarion's cock while still bouncing atop him, clumsy in lust and earnest in love. He can't keep rhythm, can't milk him the way he instinctively longs to, and for a moment he hesitates— only to realize a split second later that it barely matters just so long as he keeps moving, rocking, letting Astarion fuck into somewhere hot and tight and slick, yes yes yes—]
Come for me, sweet . . .
[He breathes it out coaxingly— and then watches in awe as Astarion unravels. His eyes dart around as he soaks up every detail, greedily hoarding each and every one (no one else will see him like this, no one else will know what it looks like when he truly falls apart). Astarion's expression contorts sweetly, and Fenris groans in sympathetic echo each time he whines or whimpers or wails his pleasure. His tips his head back, exposing the long, lean line of his throat, and Fenris darts down, biting a mark into unmarred skin, savoring the way Astarion jolts in avid response. Again and again he rocks with him, slamming his hips down for every frantic buck up, until at last—
Fenris shudders as Astarion's climax finally subsides, and it's only a little to do with how he's still achingly hard. But there's something about knowing that he's come in him— that he's claimed him . . .
And it doesn't mean anything, of course— but then again, it does. There's something deliciously possessive about it, primal and instinctive and right. Not definitive and cruel like a collar had once been, but rather something intimate: above anyone else, I chose you, I want you, you're mine and I'm yours.
And it's hot. Maybe it doesn't need more analysis than that.]
I liked you coming in me.
[There's questions he wants to ask. Vulgar ones, ones that he can't possibly think of articulating right now, even when he's speared atop his boyfriend's cock. Questions like can you see it on your cock if I lift up or do you think you've filled me up; things that burn at his brain but that his tongue outright refuses to curl around.
Next time. He'll ask next time, maybe, but right now . . . he nuzzles at Astarion's cheek, pressing a few aimless kisses to damp skin. Right now, he wants nothing more than to shower his boyfriend in doting affection. One hand cards through his hair as he noses against him, listening to the way he pants.
And then, murmured in his ear:]
I liked you begging, too.
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Every part of him is burning.
Gunpowder made up of tight-clenched inner thighs pulled close against his hips; kindling is the catch— the squeeze— wrung around the pith of his worn cock, hitching and shifting and settling around the way they're merged together, wrenching a scalding noise out of still-parted lips that he (oh, at this rate) might never close again. Gulping. Gagging, even. Whining like the spoiled thing he is and always has been. A mess of contradictions with a name he can't remember, swallowing air that feels like burning coal.
Air that feels like burning from the inside out.]
....I did too.
[That's what Fenris said, right? That he liked this— the come, or coming— something about that. Something beautiful. Something vulgar that leaves him shuddering hard enough for his teeth to chatter like he's cold— but he's not. Not Astarion. Astarion is still embers, after all. Belongs to heat and not the absence of it, still burning holes in messy sheets with lanky limbs and dumbstruck love and eyes that can't stay open, unlike the rest of him. He reaches out as if he were on a thread within the apex of it all, fingers trembling to the sound of ringing in his ears (and the dull pop of the flat top of his sandpaper tongue each time he moves to swallow), one hand falling around the junction of Fenris' leg and hip, and the other....
Oh it's where it belongs before he knows it. Bedded in the shadows under a strong stomach and narrowed ribs. Stroking at the stiff, heavy breadth of what's increasingly familiar to him now. What it is to hold his boyfriend's prick with hungry familiarity, greeting the little differences touch-first. A little leaner here; a little more flared there; straining heavy at the tip as it drools needily over his fingertips (those movements dangerously close to mirroring the sweatsoaked carding through his hair— high to low— high to low—) instead of starting at a laden hilt. He doesn't know how he knows the way it's meant to be, only that a shiver rouses in him, thinking right here. Right there. Like this.
Face canting to one side, searching with the outline of his teeth for baser contact.
(Or the memory of how to speak instead of thinking what it'd be like to bury his own tongue between tanned thighs.)
It's not fair they're out of sync.
It's not fair he's the only one who's spent.]
I wonder....[Astarion exhales into negative space and clips the edge of his newly claimed boyfriend's ear] ....if my bodyguard would look more handsome painted slick across my belly— or his own.
[I wonder if I could make you beg, too, underscores the rasping of each word. Too hard-ridden to sound like himself, not without a drink of water or wine. Not without giving up on the only thing he wants.]
Match the way you look inside.
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That's the only answer that counts, and it barely matters what the question is. Yes to the unspoken question of if he could get him to beg (easily, eagerly, whining and whimpering as if he's never known an ounce of shame). Yes to the way Astarion's fingers stroke his come-slick prick, high to low, high to low, and it's stunning how something so simple as a change in direction makes his thighs tremble and something searing hook deep in the pit of his belly. Yes to the suggestion of teeth against his ear and a slick palm roaming against his hip; yes to the sound of Astarion's voice low and throaty in his ear, murmuring such filth that sets off fireworks in his mind and dazes him to his core, yes, yes, yes—]
Ngh—
[A low moan slips past his lips instead of Astarion's name, and can anyone blame him? When his boyfriend whispers things that make him wring around the swell of his prick, face burning with desire and embarrassment both— when the thought of swaying on his heels, dripping with his own come and staring up at an enraptured, lustful Astarion captures his mind— when Astarion says such deliciously possessive things like my bodyguard— oh, Maker, he's only mortal.
He swallows thickly, squeezing his eyes shut as he tries to focus— to remember how to think, or speak, or do anything beyond rut his hips forward and whimper in blatant approval. Jerking his head back, he stares down at his boyfriend.]
Across your belly.
[There, now. Fenris tips his head, dark hair hanging like a curtain around his face as he peers down at him.]
So that I can have a claim, too.
[He brushes his knuckles against the edge of one sweat-damp cheek.]
You came in me— claimed me— made me yours— and now I want the same. I want you to be mine, even if the two of us are the only ones who ever know it.
So . . . make me come on you, Astarion.
[Experimentally he moves his hips just once, rocking them back to see if he can wring out one last noise from his boyfriend.]
And then see what you find hotter.
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He wrings out more than that. The noises Astarion makes (the noises that he's been making) are ones he's never heard before in all his life— not even here behind closed doors or when they (once, and only once) crawled through the vents between walls on hands and knees, places where stoked cries of whores and clients both were amplified like echoes— and he has to shut his mouth rather than his ears this time to silence them. He's not the catalyst (oh that is spread out over him, tight and fluttering around him and drenched with enough sweat and slick and heat and come that it threatens to smother him with its beauty— he's obssessed, memories fly off the shelves to make room for the buzzing trapped beneath his tongue— and he reels, and— ) he's just the source. Just the reactive set of muscle and teeth that snaps shut around his own sleeve whilst he stares up at heaven through a haze of scalding tears. Just the part of him that exhales noisily through it, whimpering at the aftershocks lithe hips strive to massage loose without letting his soft cock slip free.
He hears the silk of his sleeve tear. Feels the stitches popping loose between his teeth as his vision blurs beneath another squinting whine, each breath bellowed back into his own nose by soft silk. By the weight and shape of his forearm, his other fingers groping deep into tanned thighs with deeper, more demanding strokes than before— catching on occasion with a ring finger or a pinky the soft, supple hang of swollen curves behind it; hot and velvet-soft in a way that's tempting him to stop and wrap around them— but he can't right now. Not yet. Not when he feels the jolt of tensed-up muscles. Hears the telling strain in Fenris' roughened voice. He's starting to know the warning signs, what to chase and when to make things come apart. Or maybe that's just hubris— but he thinks he does. He thinks he does.
So this time he runs high.
This time he doesn't care how much silk he ruins when he pulls his jaw back from his arm, spit trailing sticky in slight strands from the wet-cold spot of where his mouth had been and where his tongue pants pink between childishly delicate canines— only long enough to speak.]
I'm already yours.
[It burns his lungs, the strain that holds his breath inside them at the height of their expansion. The effort that it takes to speak instead of keening like he wants to, feeling his own ribs grip back against soft flesh, trying to squeeze another outcry from him. The sort of mutiny that makes the world spin and his senses smear like paint on canvas, turning Fenris' handsomeness into a wetter haze— but he holds on.]
Make it undeniable.
[Another stroke. Another catch of fingers. Another glazing streak of movement wrapped around a still-glossed crown that shivers in his grasp.]
Come, Fenris.
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All at once he's on the brink of orgasm.
Like throwing gasoline onto a blazing inferno: Fenris moans without shame as he throws his weight forward, bracing himself against Astarion so that he can rut. Fucking himself with a fervor that grows more frantic with every passing second, his hips snapping forward to grind needily against Astarion's palm, shuddering with every wringing twist of pale fingers. More oh Maker please Astarion please I need it I need you please, his words slurred and broken up by the growing cacophony of moans and whimpers and mewls, until at last it simply becomes an endless echo of please. His thighs tremble as he gasps down at his boyfriend, eyes rolling back for every squeezing tug (please please please), electricity jolting up his spine whenever knuckles tap against soft curves (please more please don't stop). And when he manages to force open his eyes—
Fenris doesn't have words for what it is to see Astarion looking like that as he lies between tanned thighs. Glimmering eyes filled with tears that spill down flushed cheeks, the imprint of bitemarks vivid against sweat-soaked skin, the rise and fall of a narrow chest as he exhales hotly with every panting breath, and that's to say nothing of the saliva glittering against his chin, nor the way he's so overwhelmed he has to bite and tear his precious silks just to stay silent— Maker. He's damningly seductive in his messiness, all his pretty veneers stripped away into this raw, panting, perfect Diamond.
Come, his incubus whispers, and Fenris can do nothing but obey.
He's deaf to the hoarse scream that rips its way out of his throat and echoes around the room; he's blind to the way it looks as the first pulsing splatter of pearl lands atop Astarion's belly. Head thrown back and throat bared, he's too busy rocking into that coaxing grip, fucking himself blind— no instincts, no rhythm, no thought, nothing but longing and lust thundering through his veins. Again and again and again, until with one final, shuddering thrust of his hips . . .
. . . he's spent. His softening prick drools out one or two more droplets that form a viscous connection between stomach and cock; sweat drips along his temples and trickles down his spine as Fenris shivers atop his mate.
And then—
But there's nothing. No thoughts. No desperation. That last orgasm wiped him clean, and for a long moment Fenris simply sways there, a loud ringing in his ears and all of him so spent. Sooner or later he'll remember how to talk, perhaps, but for now there's only the increasingly adoring way he's looking down at Astarion. Oh, it's you, something in him murmurs. I love you, simple and yet so powerful he doesn't dare say it. Not now. Maybe not ever, or maybe tomorrow.
They're teenagers, after all. Fickle things in love and lust (and maybe there's a part of Fenris that will take a long time to accept that Astarion means to be his).
No, wait. There's one thought that permeates all that fog. Fenris blinks slowly, and then, with great force of effort, mumbles:]
. . . fuck.
[Articulate. But happily so, at least.]
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He thinks with the same amount of grace he swallows by, scratchy and bobbing and as ungainly as a child—
—something he isn't now, though, is what comes rising to the surface. Through the high-pitched ringing in his ears that still sounds like Fenris' screaming and the shrill numbness of his fingertips now slid up around the nape of that lithe neck, left to shiver weakly in wet white hair. Through all the sticky, sweltering— and around their silhouettes, cold— sensations crawling in around them, he knows he's not a child anymore.
Children don't fall in love like this.
Children don't want to burn out from the inside and lap up come like cream, oh, no. That level of debauchery prints money here, and there's a reason why the sign on the front door makes damned well certain the only patrons passing through are those with age behind them. His heart is beating slower. Stronger. The jewelry he'd borrowed fits better where it's rucked up, gemstones glittering like welling droplets in the divots of his countours.
He feels taller, meeting Leto eye-to-eye at last now that they've grown. Face to face in ways they haven't been in years.
And then Leto arches forwards just enough to shift the pressure where they're bottled, and he lets out a heady groan as the entirety of his vision blurs (the slightest trickle slithering down between two sets of tangled thighs, coiled like a snake).]
And you....said I'm loud....
[He's smiling at a distance, ten thousand meters away from the place where an upwards angled cheek pushes hot against another. He wants to keep him here forever. Forever and a day, or as long as it takes to find the strength to wrap devotion round strong fingers like a band.]
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You— you are loud . . .
[It isn't a very good retort, but on the other hand, it's a miracle he string words together at all. Eyes fluttering closed and every muscle aching, it's all Fenris can do to return those soft nudges. Damp skin meets damp skin as he pushes fitfully against Astarion's cheek, butting up against him like a needy packmate, his fingers aimless as they roam across whatever bits of Astarion he can find. Stay, stay, stay, the thought not fretful but languid. Stay with me, beloved, never leave me, for what could be better than this?
Nothing, that's what. Nothing at all. And it doesn't matter what debauchery goes on downstairs (though now Fenris has a renewed interest in understanding just what, exactly, he and Astarion might add to their next attempt), for none of the works those clients hold in their arms comes close to the blinding, blazing wonder that's Astarion.
Their loss, Fenris thinks smugly, and buries his face against the crook of his boyfriend's throat.
Eventually, his breath returns to him. He's still such a languid thing happily collapsed atop his mate, but his thoughts begin to take a sort of coherency. And the first thing he thinks, his thoughts trailing Astarion's own, is: we aren't children anymore. What surer marker of adulthood could there be? Virginites lost (and it's so deeply satisfying that it was to one another), that last bastion of unknown territory finally breached and given shape . . . what will it be like, Fenris wonders, to live in the cabaret now? The brothel was always kept separate from them both— not hidden, for Zevlor and Kanan are no fools, but at least ostensibly kept from the prying eyes of two impressionable teenagers. But now… what possible secrets could they hold now that Astarion and Fenris rank among their number?
Mm. Things to discover later, for all his musing on the future can’t compare to the present. Leto presses one tired kiss against Astarion’s cheek, then buries his face against the crook of the other boy’s neck.]
My Diamond . . . was it what you thought sex would be?
[That excursion into the vents had been educational, oh yes, and he’d been just as fascinated as Astarion (mouth dry and eyes wide, hardly daring to breathe for how fixated he was on the rutting, rhythmic show beneath them)— but it was nothing compared to this.]
Or should we try again soon?
[They’re still connected, he realized, and arches his back with a pleased little exhale.]
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His groan is sharp, and only by the grace of the Maker or Sharess herself is he so lucky as not to really manage any sheer amount of volume in it; the enthusiasm is the fiercest part, not the air within his lungs— or out of his lungs, now, panting and clinging to Leto with a grip that no doubt burns.
Don't move like that, he thinks. And then, scolding his own synaptic instincts, spurns that same line of thought, do move like that. For where else do they have to be? What else do they have to do? What could be more important than this, other than love itself all sweaty and confined within their bodies, trapped around the places where they touch.
He kisses Leto back, and then squeezes the measure of their tangled legs together.]
Soon.
[(Flushing at the words 'his Diamond,' gods above that's all he wants to be. His Diamond. His.
Let fame and fortune keep itself company.)]
I didn't— I didn't know it could be this good. [Isn't flattery; he really hadn't thought sex was anything different than the usual thrills. Why people paid so much for it was like why some people preferred gold jewelry to silver— some mix of status and sheer expectation.
Now, though....]
How did you learn all that....?
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I— didn't.
[Is that right? The past . . . however long it's been (minutes? hours? days? nothing really exists outside of this room, least of all the passage of time) are a happy blur, and only now does Fenris try to go back and pick apart each specific action.]
I . . . it just felt good, [he says a little helplessly. With a small wince he inches forward, drawing his legs up so he can ease them out of a kneeling position and stretch them back, and then lie down properly atop Astarion.]
I suppose some of it I must have seen in the past, but . . . I just did what felt good.
[Is that what sex is? It's such a scripted affair in the Moulin Rouge, or at least it's always seemed that way. Every dance is a titillating thing, meant to allure as it alludes to what might be sold later; every bounce and jiggle is planned in meticulous detail. Only now does Fenris think that maybe sex isn't quite the same way . . . or is it? Mm, it seems a little ridiculous to think that every person in the world plans out their rutting, so . . . maybe it's only good sex that's planned? But that can't be right, for look at what they've done . . .
Maybe they're just really, really good at it, Fenris thinks, and brushes a sweat-damp curl away from Astarion's face. His expression is more than a little besotted, he knows, but for the life of him he can't help it. His heart is just so full of adoration right now, doting and sweet; it's all he can do not to fiercely nuzzle against his boyfriend every second he gets.]
How did you learn? The dirty talk alone was . . . [Maker. He swallows thickly.] It was really good, Astarion. And when you said—
[I wonder if my bodyguard would look more handsome painted slick across my belly— or his own . . . match the way you look inside. Even now, the mere memory of them is enough to stir something in the pit of his belly— and yet he can't quite say it. What was easy in the heat of the moment is a little harder in the aftermath, and he glances away for a few seconds, pleasantly embarrassed.]
You truly are a Diamond.
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[Is that the first time in his life he's ever paid a compliment that devalues his own contributions?
(Yes, and it trickles effortlessly from his chest. Uncorked at last and beautifully aged— for the vintage might be far from ancient, but the potency is steep.)]
I think my lessons might've been paying off. [He's not yet learned how to even properly kiss; Satine has only covered etiquette, posture, and enunciation, common grooming tips and fashion. Astarion would've learned the exact same thing from any children's finishing school in the city, not that he knows it.
Not that either of them know it, and it's going to be such a menacing source of irritation for every single person around them from now until they (eventually) learn better.
He forces his fingers to unlatch— a dull ache flooding in alongside feeling and the rush of blood, so he's clunky in the act of stroking hair: not fully trembling in those first few passes, just close enough that he's aware each time they skirt too light or much too heavy in their path across his lover's sweatlaced scalp.
Hello, he thinks, words coming from a lifetime away.]
Don't....[it isn't tense; he's only interrupted by the fact that he forgot to breathe first, and finds he has to take in more to finish off his sentence] don't move yet.
I want to sleep like this if—
[This time the pause is real, he doesn't know the answer to this.]
....it doesn't hurt, does it?
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No-oo . . . not hurt.
[The words are spoken slowly as Fenris tries to make sure that's an honest reply. But no, there's no pain there, not even when he wiggles a little and arches his back just to be sure. Though that has the unintentional side-effect of teasing Astarion, and he makes a little face in an apology that's mostly genuine. Sorry-not-sorry, a little spark of satisfied sadism flaring momentarily in the pit of his stomach.]
It feels . . .
[How to describe it? Not something as simplistic as good, for that doesn't begin to cover it. Satisfying, maybe, is the best word for it: there's something so innately pleasing about the feeling of being caught and kept like this, speared open and spread wide around the not-inconsiderable width of his boyfriend's prick. I'm yours, that's what this feels like. I'm yours, only yours, slick droplets of pearl glossing his rim as Astarion claims him inch by inexorable, inevitable inch . . .
It's perverse, no doubt. Filthy in a way that he would have found repulsive in anyone else. But when it's them— well. That's different, isn't it? In the same way mulsum and agreggio pavali are both technically wines, but only one of them is innately desirable within these halls.
Oh, but he owes Astarion an answer . . . he'd nearly forgotten, lulled into dozing complacency by those fingers and his prick both.]
I want to sleep like this too. And stay atop you as long as I can. And next time, you can try it— it feels really good, Astarion. Better than you'd think. I like being with you like this . . . and—
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[He draws back (one hand flying up to pin Astarion's in place— don't stop petting me).]
What if I move in my sleep?
[He used to cling when he was very young, his arms wrapping so tight around Astarion that the other boy couldn't get away if he tried. Now, older and more secure, he has a tendency to twist around until he's burrowed deep within the nest of blankets and sheets that make up his bed. It's not the worst behavior a bedmate could have, but there's been complaints of sharp heels and carelessly tossed limbs before.]
I don't want to break your cock.
[It's a good cock, and they've already had one scare tonight.]
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[Maybe it'd be easier if he just wiggled off Astarion? He inches forward, trying to do just that, but oh, he's so loathe to lose that claim . . . mmph. A compromise: he nips at his boyfriend's jawline.]
Don't sleep just yet, for I don't want to get off you. Tell me instead what you want to try next time we do this.
[Next time, and despite himself, a little thrill runs through him for the thought. There will be a next time, won't there? And another, and another . . .]
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Oh, the shiver that rockets through him at that (unintended) teasing. Oh gods the stars that burst across his eyes, shattering the slate of his awareness and leaving him clinging tight to Fenris— his stare unfixed and glassy, his fingernails dug in, shuddering like a wet cat.
It's only when he recovers that he knocks his cheek against his boyfriend's, letting one chastising scrape of skin-against-warm-skin serve as both scolding and acceptance all at once. How dare you mixed into I forgive you, menace.
He isn't really angry, after all.]
You won't break my cock. [Confident enough at first blush, his fingertips (the ones attached to his caught hand, anyway) resuming their slow petting. And then, amending:] ....at least I don't think you will.
You seem to like the way it feels, so I bet your subconscious would too.
[That sounds logical, right?]
Mmmm....but what I want to see next time.... [He's thinking. He's really thinking.] I hear blowjobs are amazing. That'd be nice. Maybe even....
Tying you up? —or blindfolds? The old silk ones are getting worn out, I heard Kanan say. It wouldn't be hard to borrow one without anyone noticing.
[Look how learned he is, Fenris. Look how much he knows about sex.]
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But oh, a blowjob— oh, those suggestions, and with each one Fenris' eyes grow wider and his cheeks warmer. He barely knows what a blowjob is, but it doesn't matter; anything that Astarion says he wants to try Fenris is more than game for.]
You—
[Tying you up or blindfolds . . . he'd known, vaguely, that those were things that people did during sex (for there was only so much Kanan and Zevlor could keep from them). But knowing it happened to others and considering it for himself are two very different things, and Fenris spends a precious few seconds trying to imagine what exactly that would look like. Though . . .]
Pick one to try.
[He tips his head, eyes narrowing in familiar competitiveness.]
Tie me up or blindfold me . . . but whatever you don't pick, I get to try on you.
[There's really no wrong answer here.]
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[So flustered that it threads into his voice for half a second, breathy and completely uncomposed. His long ears sunken shyly underneath his curls until they twitch— and then jolt upright, all bashfulness wiped away by a short series of counterbalancing blinks.
(There's also the matter of the tension trapped low along his belly that still lingers, but he keeps his hands braced somewhere around either side of Fenris' shoulders now, and at least he can anchor himself through the way his fingertips curl just slightly over skin. Clinging and functioning like foundation all at once.)]
I mean— [Competitiveness. Competitiveness he can do, even distracted. An increasingly steady slant forming at the corner of his fresher grin insists on it, in fact.] of course. That's exactly what I had in mind, too.
That way we both can enjoy ourselves.
[Erh. No. Wait. Doesn't that imply that it wouldn't be pleasurable if they weren't taking turns?]
Try new things.
[ —Yes, there we go.]
Start making lists of all our favorites....just like the ones I've seen downstairs.
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I want to blindfold you first.
[The thought of Astarion with his hands drawn up over his head, lithe body drawn taut as he squirms in overstimulated impatience is, mm, a fantastic one, but Fenris likes the thought of him blind better. Going from arrogantly demanding things to gasping from the least little touch . . . oh, he likes the thought of that a lot, Fenris decides. And given they'll inevitably try everything from either end of the equation, he might as well demand what's on his mind first.]
That way we can start there . . . and go down any list we please.
[His eyes scan up and down Astarion's face, and then, in a burst of impulsive courage, he adds:]
I want to see you in lingerie. So. Add that to your list too. And I want to see you give me a blowjob too— maybe both of them at once.
[And maybe first, so that way Fenris can understand what exactly blowing someone entails.]
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2/2 me realizing I really need to just commit and make us more icons
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2/2 PLEASE I WOULD LOVE THIS
THEN IT WILL HAPPEN....SOON >:]
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