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...a slave. [There is a difference, after all.]

And my master was exceptionally cruel.

Corypheus would weep.

[His teeth click as his jaw sets. His tongue feels heavy in his mouth.

He smiles, and there’s nothing happy about it.]

Though in so many ways, I imagine they might be the best of friends were fate so overwhelmingly stupid as to bring them together.

[ Rifters are just dreams, of course. But that means that somewhere - somewhere, it's likely that there's some clever elf with a mordant wit in those circumstances, dreaming of freedom. And that yanks painfully at Byerly's heart. ]

One could go mad, thinking about how fucking miserable life is, to ensure that there are such evil men in every world.

[ His smile is bitter as well. ]

[Mad indeed. Given how far his own sanity has probably slipped over the years, Astarion's inclined to agree.]

The gods play games while we live and die like trapped rats. Your Maker— if he isn’t long dead already, bones littering a blackened city— isn’t any different.

Better to rely on yourself than fate. Or life. Or anything else at all.

Oh, I don't know. A fellow can't have a family tree as full of lunatics as mine and fully trust himself.

[ - Not really a properly manipulative comment, nor one to push Astarion towards calm. Ah, well. Sometimes a fellow's desire to be a proper puppeteer is overwhelmed by his need to pity himself. ]

You know why Averesch said all that, don't you?

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Should I care?

[Some people say you only see yourself in someone else. The optimist will leap to hope, the liar will think it's deception, the pessimist spots defeat, and the survivor, the manipulator— ]

The man was protecting himself. His cause just as much as his own magic-wielding crowd.

Just so.

[ Peas in a pod, these two. ]

He was a rebel mage, before this war. Most of our Riftwatch mages were. They want to see the Circles destroyed - and so they benefit from Rifters sharing their cause.

The more you let him crow, the closer he is to succeeding in that.

Not that it matters: I won't be lending my hand to it regardless, whatever this all comes down to. [Even if it means gnawing off his own hand with his teeth by the end of things, or slipping fully into Darktown, or— anything else, for that matter. There's a certainty stuck in it, even from a snake like Astarion.

The fight against Corypheus is as selfless as it gets, and precisely where he draws the line.]

Still. It does beg the question, what's your opinion on this little arrangement?

[Asked while he lifts his palm as punctuation, green catching in dim light.]

Which?

[ He tilts his head slightly to the side. ]

Tying your fate to the mages'? Having Rifters here at all?

Both, I suppose. [All conversational gravity spent, he returns to wine, nursing it along as he talks.]

Call me hypothetically curious, while we're indulging in chattering away about speculative nonsense.

Well -

[ A shrug. ]

For the first: I think it's foolishness. Circles were established as a way to ensure that mages do not become abominations. We haven't had a single Rifter be possessed.

Finally, a man with common sense. [Astarion scoffs, easing back into his seat.]

Rifters. Dangerous. Utter rubbish.

Well.

[ A little gesture of his hand. ]

The thought that being a Rifter inherently makes you dangerous. There are still dangerous Rifters. Like Thranduil could break me over his knee if he fancied, I suspect.

[His lips twist in a faded little smile. Moving to refill his own glass rather than asking after it just comes naturally.

There’s no need to put on a show of good behavior here, after all.]

Yes well. That at least would be amusing to watch.

Abominations, not so much.

Agreed. Being shoved around by that fellow would be positively erotic.

[ A wry smile. ]

Abominations, not so much. No - I fear demons, but I don't fear you.

[He makes a noise that’s— perhaps— a little too telling. Halfway between a hum and a laugh, like a joke lives somewhere in the air between them, entirely unsaid out of decency alone.]

Mmhm.

[And that’s all he has to say about that particular subject— until the next statement follows.]

Flattery is your strong suit, I’ll give you that.

But thank you.

[Something about his voice in that final addition...it’s very nearly muted. Sober, compared to all usual pomp.]

[ A cocked eyebrow in response to that suggestive hum, but he doesn't pursue it. Instead: ]

For what?

This.

The wine, the— mm. Conversation, I suppose. I realize we’re all just protecting our own ass....sets [ha] but I won’t lie and say it wasn’t a welcome change of pace.

You could’ve easily made yourself a thorn in my paw, or a stubborn warden, of sorts.

[There at least, his mouth twists into something far more wry.]

Though I suppose there’s always time for that later.

I'll prick at you, you can be sure of it. [ His smile grows a little ambiguous. ] Everyone feels dreadfully injured by me at one time or another.

[ Anyway - He shrugs. ]

But - it's my pleasure to have this conversation with you. So many of the others just - oh, they just circle back to the same hurts, again and again. You're actually someone who has something fresh to say.

Consider it mutual, then. [It isn't said like it's a bad thing, the potential for injury between them.] At the very least, we know exactly where we stand.

[Still, curiously:]

Rifters, do you mean? Or...well, everyone you deal with?

Rifters less than most, actually.

[ A shrug as he sips his wine. ]

Mages are the worst of them. I've known a few mages who are interested in forward motion - [ There's a little twist of his heart as he obliquely misses Colin, after all this time - ] But for the most part, conversations with them are simply - what are you doing for us, do you even care about mages, let us strongly say once more that the Chantry is wicked and we've done nothing wrong.

Rifters are actually rather refreshing, because they're all so different. Though there are some - I'm sure you've met them - whose sole hobby is letting all of us Thedosians know how backwards we are and how fascinating and marvelous their homes were and what do you mean, you've never heard of Blip Blatterling, the Bard of Yark? What do you mean, you don't have devices that draw the shit directly from your bowels so you don't even have to strain yourself to go?

[ Drolly, to Astarion - ] Thank you, by the way, for not coming in here and spending twenty minutes of my time on Blip Blatterling's ballads.

And here I thought you’d thank me first and foremost for not talking extensively about devices that draw the shit directly from your bowels.

Nice to see where your priorities lie.

[Joking makes it easier— everything, that is. Like this, his shoulders relax, his expression forgetting its tension. Drinking is a gentler art, and his voice returns to its usual songbird cast.]

Then again, almost every bard I’ve ever had the misfortune of listening to tended to sound more like an old crow crooning, rather than anything truly pleasant.

Almost.

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I actually wouldn't mind the shit-extraction device. It'd make certain activities require rather less preparation.

[ His smile is quite sweet. ]

But if you tell me abut some bard-or-another from your home, I'll throw my drink in your face.

[His laugh is absolutely stupid— high and lilting. The sort of thing you only hear at the most exclusive of events, where everyone’s so rich and pedigreed they don’t give a damn what they happen to sound like.

They make it fashionable.

It also, for reference, is childishly sincere. His sense of humor: just awful.]

No, my dear. I was only thinking of Thedas. Say what you will about the place, but talent...

[He cocks his head to one side, deliberately clicking his tongue.]

It does actually exist here.

Oh ho.

[ His eyes narrow with pleasure. ]

I hope you're not speaking of Juke Bachs.

Mm. [Thoughtful. Entirely played-up.] Is he Orlesian?

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