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doggish: (talk ⚔ you're DOD GAM RIGHT)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-16 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not fussy.

[They hit the same line at different emphasis points, but the petulant little nose wrinkle is the same. But protesting really does make him sound as though he is, and that's annoying. Annoying, too, the way his stomach has started to flutter, his heart beating a little faster as they work.

Intimacy is such a lax affair within the Moulin Rouge. Sex and all that comes with it are easily exchanged, offered up between performers and prostitutes as stress relief or to stave off boredom. Even Fenris has gotten propositioned more than once, though he's never taken anyone up on the offer. There are petty jealousies, of course, and rivalries that only grow more heated when it comes to who chooses what bed to lie in, but still: no one thinks of it as anything personal.

And nor will they, he tells himself firmly. This isn't anything more than practice, and the fact that they two are so comfortable with one another is just bonus. There's no reason to be nervous. There's no reason for his words to stick in the back of his throat, nor for his palms to stay a little damp even after he's wiped them off on his trousers.]


I— [A swift swallow, and then:] I simply do not relish the thought of having to wake up early tomorrow because of you.

[He jerks his head as he comes around the bar. The bottles are, if not neatly put away, at least marginally acceptable, and that will have to do for now. Fenris leads the way back, his head half-turned as he speaks.]

What is there to focus on, anyway?

[It's a real question, even as he hops up on the ladder and takes it two rungs at a time. Their secret spot is still pleasingly secluded, even now, and he feels a sense of satisfaction as he ducks past a wooden beam and settles in there.]

Most people manage it without any training at all.
doggish: but i bet his brain is pretty traumatized (talk ⚔ i don't know about his face)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-16 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
I— once. With Elise.

[It had happened during a show, when they were both backstage. After weeks of (somewhat clumsy) flirting, she'd sat herself in his lap and stolen a kiss— and then another, and another after that. She'd been the one to lead the way, and she'd been the one to put a halt to it too: springing away with a giggle as act one shifted into act two, leaving him dazedly staring after her as he'd touched his lips. And that was that, apparently, for though he'd approached her again, she'd shrugged him off.

Next week she was off kissing Leon, and then Daisy the week after. Nothing is personal here, and he was a little stupid to expect more.

He'd never told Astarion. He doesn't know why, save that it felt oddly disloyal.]


Have you?

[He's too big for their little space, and adding another body doesn't help. His shoulders are broader than they used to be, more defined, and they bump against plywood as he shifts around. One leg tentatively stretches out, resting next to Astarion's thigh, before the other swiftly follows. Time was they were fine with being tangled up, all elbows and knees in a nest in bed; he can't remember when they stopped doing that. Now he's so aware of all the places where they touch: his foot resting lightly against a clothed thigh, Astarion's knees bumping against his shin. Somewhere around here, he knows, there's a scratched in little message they'd written years ago: A+F were here, pointless and triumphant.

He wonders if Astarion has kissed anyone. He must have, Fenris thinks. He's so much better at social things, and he's getting so good at flirting with others . . . surely he must have. And yet the thought makes his stomach twist unpleasantly.]
doggish: herpes herpes hooray (talk ⚔ he once got you to chant)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-17 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
[Instinctively his ears pin back, his expression closing as he tries to understand what just happened. Guilt churns in his stomach for reasons he can't understand— because why should he feel guilty? He didn't do anything wrong. Astarion is his best friend, of course, his confidant and his ally in all things, but that doesn't mean he gets to know everything that goes on in Fenris' life. And as for standards— Elise is pretty. She's pretty and a fine conquest, and he doesn't understand why Astarion is pushing back so hard.]

So I'm the more accomplished in this arena, then.

[His tone is cooler, his head cocking as one eyebrow raises in challenge.]

Then come here, and I'll show you how it's done.
doggish: (embarrassed ⚔ huffs huffs)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-18 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
[It's so different from kissing Elise.

He'd been aware of her, no doubt. The taste of her lipstick and the catch of her rings as she'd woven her fingers in her hair, and each time she'd squirmed he'd been so pointedly attuned to all the places soft flesh had met hard muscle. Her soft mouth kept pushing hungrily against his as he lagged a half-step behind, and all the while his mind had spun wildly: it's happening, so this is what kissing is like, it's happening, it's happening right now, is this right, is this it. Only once he'd learned to exhale had it become something thrilling, leaving his mouth sore and his prick aching.

But not once did he feel as though he'd been set ablaze by her.

Their lips meet, and it's simple. Chaste. For a moment they linger there, and then Astarion draws back just long enough to speak. And even if he had wanted to be a brat, Fenris finds he simply can't, for all the words have flown out of his head. Their lips hadn't even moved and already he's aching for more; his head jerks just once, an aborted gesture before he remembers that command to be still.

Be silent.

Fine. He can shut up— but he damned well won't be passive, not after Astarion shot his mouth off like that.

Settling his hands on that slender waist, Fenris yanks Astarion in with one sharp little tug, their hips grinding together and his back arching in eager meeting. Come here, pointed and challenging, even as white sparks fly behind his eyes and some part of his brain fizzles in heady bliss, oh, fuck. He's half-hard already, his cock straining needily against his pants; there's no way Astarion doesn't feel him, but he won't be the one to draw attention to it.

And he doesn't let go.

Remember who you're training with, as he slowly begins to kiss him in earnest, a steady push and pull as his thumbs stroke tentatively beneath Astarion's ribs.]
doggish: if you don't want me to stare at your ass (embarrassed ⚔ don't bend down)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-18 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
Yuh— uh, yeah.

[As intelligent answers go, it isn't worth much, but at least it's honest. He needs to give a better one, he knows, but his mind keeps flitting towards little things, like the way Astarion's freckles look when his cheeks are lit up by such a pretty flush. The way his lips have gone swollen and red in a way Fenris has never seen, and the glimmer of saliva still lingering there— gods, he likes looking at his mouth. He wants to kiss him again, he realizes: dart up and catch him another hungry kiss, and another, biting at that bottom lip until he can earn another needy little whine—

Focus.

His eyes dart up guiltily as he tries to think. What is he asking? Oh, Elise . . . no, not Elise. Who cares about Elise? What can I do better, that's the real question here, and Fenris frowns softly as he tries to think.]


But . . . try this . . .

[One hand stays on Astarion's waist while the other lifts, cupping one cheek. Gently he tips his head just a touch, drawing him in as he fits their mouths together. Against his lips, then:]

Slower. F-follow my rhythm . . . don't try and lead.

[And ignore the way he stuttered just a little. Wasn't this how it went last time? He'd been so desperately hungry, fervently trying to take take take, right up until Elise had scolded him with a little bite. Settle down, she'd taught him. Let me be the one to show you the way, and he's almost sure that's what it meant.]

That, uh, that goes for tongues, too.

[He thinks. He's flying blindly and stammering all the while. There's a dull flush building beneath tanned skin, harder to spot but no less luminous than Astarion's own.]

Let, let me lead the way. I'll— in your mouth. Not mine. Just . . .

[Oh, to hell with it. It's easier to show than tell, and he tips his head, catching Astarion in a kiss. He means to start slow, but nerves make him go just a little too fast, clumsily opening his mouth just a little too wide— but it's the rhythm he knows best. The coaxing little dance of pushes and pulls that move in time with the thundering of his heart, drawing Astarion in as much as the hand he wraps around the back of his neck, urging him in closer— to melt against him and settle those rigid muscles.]
doggish: (embarrassed ⚔ huffs huffs)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-23 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[His lips part, intending to say something, but for the life of him Fenris can't remember how to speak. A compliment? But he barely knows what a compliment is right now, for all the blood has rushed between his legs and his mind is little more than a whirlwind of sparks and dazed adoration. His lips throb from phantom pressure, the taste of Astarion still lingering on his tongue; absently he licks his lips just once, trying to remember what words are.]

So—

[Focus. The scent of lilac fills the air, tangling sweetly with Astarion's own. It's as much a new addition as the heels, but he likes it. He likes the way Astarion smells normally, sweet and a little powdery, and this only adds. Absently, his thumb slides against one soft cheek, a little fascinated by the pattern of faint freckles there.]

So compliment me.

[This close together, there's nowhere to look but at one another, and that helps. It helps not to have an escape route— for even if every part of him is howling yes, there's still a tiny part that wants to run.]

It has to be something that sounds like you mean it.

[He isn't a diamond in training, but it's impossible not to pick up some tips when you've grown up here.]
doggish: it's a general anger you know like just a state of being not a specific mood (anger ⚔ angry but like at the world)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-24 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
[Something in his stomach pitches down low, a frown darkening his face as it does. And why? The words are mild (the words are some of the least that they've ever exchanged, for both of them have tempers), so why does it hurt? Why does it leave him feeling so stung? His eyes dart about Astarion's face, watching the way he avoids his eye, and tries to understand.

Is it jealousy? The idea is a little thrilling, even if that's mean. But strange, too, for what is there to be jealous of? They've never kissed. They've never even thought about kissing, and anyway, even if they had, it's not Fenris' fault Elise got there first. No, Fenris decides, Astarion can't be jealous of that. He must be jealous that Fenris— who hates the spotlight, who abhors the idea of entertaining, who would rather die than be a courtesan— is better at this than him. ]


Elise likes anyone who will pay her attention.

[It's petulantly said, that frown still gracing his face.]

And she would have been on you that night if you'd been the one backstage— is that what you want me to say?

Or do you just want confirmation that you're still somehow better at this, too?
doggish: don't stop! just kill them! (anger ⚔ today's motto is)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-24 04:12 am (UTC)(link)
[He watches Astarion knock his head with no small measure of satisfaction, his frown evolved into a proper scowl. He doesn't know why they're fighting, only that they are— and much like in childhood, there comes a point where it's all reactionary.]

Listen to what? Last I heard, you couldn't even come up a compliment without stalling— or was I supposed to be impressed by something that half-assed?

[He doesn't get up, if only because getting up would mean crowding in Astarion's space, and that's the last thing he wants right now. But his hands are cold, and his lap feels empty where strong thighs had nestled not a moment before. His lips are aching and he doesn't understand what happened— only that it had to do with Elise, and kissing, and—]

What's your problem? You were the one who asked me to teach you! You can't be upset that I'm better at it!
doggish: the way you are (anger ⚔ why are you)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-24 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[Oh, that's it. That is it— with a low growl Fenris' leg shoots out and sweeps in one swift motion, knocking Astarion's legs out from under him and sprawling him flat on his ass. From there it's easy to scramble atop him— oh, so much easier when they were children, and even as Fenris grapples for his wrists there's a quiet note of surprise. This is easier than it should be, but oh, it's been a while since they've last fought . . .

There, and in an instant he has Astarion pinned flat on his back, his wrists locked in place and Fenris' thighs slung over his hips. It's how they always used to fight, scrambling to pin the other down— and right about now, Fenris thinks, is when he'd threaten to spit. That always earned a scream, so easily so that it almost felt like cheating.

He doesn't want to do that now.]


You need all my teaching and then some! You can't even kiss me without freaking out— how are you gonna deal with some idiot off the street!

[But that's just snarling. The real question comes as he glares down at that reddened face, struggling to find some semblance of understanding there.]

What the hell are you so pissy about? That I got here first? I didn't ask her to do it! She just— it just happened!
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[personal profile] zevlor 2025-06-25 02:19 am (UTC)(link)
doggish: thin (anger ⚔ the ice you're on?)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-25 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
[His own teeth ache in sympathetic eagerness, ready to snarl— or growl— or bite, desperate to sink his teeth in and make Astarion squall. His lips curl back, but he doesn't take the bait, not yet— not least of which he'll have to put himself in range if he wants to attack, and he isn't quite ready to get bitten just yet.]

You're the one making it weird!

[He's being too loud, too emotional, but he can't help it. Beneath him Astarion writhes, their hips grinding as they buck against one another, and oh— he's still half-hard. He's still aching, no matter that he doesn't want to be, and every little movement only makes it worse. With an audible growl he slams his hips down, trying to pin Astarion in place and keep him still.]

It just happened because Elise is a slut! [Oh, the sentence echoes, and it's mean and petty and not fair at all.] I didn't say I was better than you, I said I was better at kissing than you, and you freaked out about ME— stop

[A snapped out response to another attempt at biting.]

Just— stop.

[A bodyguard is meant to deescalate, isn't he? And while he hasn't officially won, well— it's hard to argue Astarion is anything but caught right now. He glares down at him, his mouth pursed tight.]

You're the one who threw a tantrum just because I'm better at this. What's gonna stop you when some customer acts like an asshole, huh? You're always such a brat

[And despite his better thoughts, despite his best effort, sometimes instinct wins out— which is to say that Fenris leans down in one swift movement and bites sharp at the crook of Astarion's neck, all instinct and no thought.]
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[personal profile] zevlor 2025-06-25 10:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[He'd tried discussing it with Kanan. Kanan suggested broaching it with them. Helpful.]

So....you were trying to help him with his training....[Zevlor starts, rolling each word slowly so it comes on like a question rather than a statement. His arms are folded as he stands leaning in the doorway to Fenris' room, eyes narrowed over the spectacles he's begun wearing more and more these days, streaks of subtle white cut through his hair.] ....and that's when you two started hitting each other?

[The arched brow is a given.]

Are you certain it wasn't the other way around?
doggish: and note the fucking shift in my tone (talk ⚔ i say again what)

[personal profile] doggish 2025-06-26 12:00 am (UTC)(link)
[Being alone has cooled Fenris' temper some, but not entirely. The moment Zevlor says that (and it isn't an accusation, no matter what his stung ego howls) Fenris' head snaps up, indignance already leaping to his tongue.]

I was not the one who started it!

[He wishes he hadn't said it the moment it flies out of his mouth. He sounds like a child, not a very-nearly-almost adult. And Zevlor, for all that he can be exasperated with them both, doesn't usually leap to blame one over the other until he has all the facts. It was a question, nothing more.]

He—

[The briefest of hesitations, for some small part of Fenris doesn't want to tell Zevlor about this part. Best to go quick, then:] He wanted me to help him practice, and so I did. [Practice, yes, that's the term: far more innocuous-sounding than making out. A little faster, then:] Then he got pissy just because I'd done it before and he hadn't, and kept telling me I wasn't listening, and that I was only there to help him get in practice, and then he kicked me.

[His mouth twitches, and he adds with some small measure of satisfaction:]

It was the only hit he got in, though.

[So there.]

I did not start it. I simply finished it.

[And he's not displeased by that. But then, nosily:]

Did he tell you I started it?
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[personal profile] zevlor 2025-06-26 05:34 am (UTC)(link)
Obviously it was the only hit he got in. The boy's made of silk and senseless ambition. [Is dry enough to signal how much he is not playing along with petty teenage warring, wherein the greatest of their fears is how they're seen. A sense of pride extending only to the borders of their fingertips.

They don't have bills to pay. They don't have children to feed. They certainly do not have a play to be finished before Christmas ready to knock the whole of Paris off its feet, elsewise foreclosure's in the very real cards.
]

Honestly, Fenris. [More a wearied sigh than anything else.] You bit him on the neck?

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